TBH the more I think about everything that's happened the slimmer the chance I would have of wanting him back anyway. I'm slowly moving on. And if that means getting other guy's numbers and getting a *tiny* kiss goodnight, then fine. I'm putting all my effort into having fun now. He didn't bother to think much about me when he was emailing her while I was lying in bed next to him. I'm coming to the conclusion his actions are unforgivable.
Which is quite a nice feeling. It makes me feel a little bit more in control at last